“I wish, as well as everybody else, to be perfectly happy; but, like everybody else, it must be in my own way.”
Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
I can relate plenty with Elinor in S&S.
My friends like to remark that in coversations with many people I mostly stay quiet and everybody thinks I'm coldly uninterested until I smile suddenly or raise a brow in time of the topic. They think I'm too pragmatic in things they make a lot of drama about (I just think I'm surrounded by drama queens really) and unresponsive to bad things that happen to me but I actually just bottle it up and usually share with people more distant that won't try to make everything sound better or say that I'm blameless. I feel awkward receiving comfort but I like giving and taking care of people, and I'm a very patient person (influence of my mother who is basically a saint). I am outgoing and I laugh a lot and talk plenty if the time is right but the other side of my attitudes frustrate a lot of people and with time they just start overlooking whatever reaction I might have so in various situations my feelings start getting less attention in comparison to other people who react more visibly to things, which sometimes can be very upsetting and I can't say I get used to it. But I live on.
Now, where's my happy ending?